Me...a monkey...bein blur..... (chukooo~~)

      I just don't know.....hmmmm....okay,I'll just ask something to end this silence."Bla,Bla,Bla?" and in the end....it just ends with "No reason" or "No" or "Dunwan" or......or things that has connection with things like that.I feel sorry for myself....isk3....am I "that" understanding(Okay,now I feel like the biggest jerk in the world~)
      As usual,I open my laptop,connect my internet,and open facebook,and blog,and youtube and..1000 more webs.I tried to judge and see the difference between my blog and Princess's blog.GOD,so many difference!(Sometimes I do feel its a one side love....no offence...)I think I'm to obsessed with her.I need help!!don't care if its a doctor or a witch doctor,I just don't want to be to much into her.The main reason I get emotional fast is cause I'm thinking too much about her.
      I've to admit,I'm scared.My NCO camp is like,1 more day,and I haven't even pack my bag!!!I don't think I even have the proper uniform. T~T I wish the days at the camp end fast,cause after NCO is school camp!!School camp rocks!!(I think..)What rocky about school camp is friends,sleeping late with friends,loitering around with friends at night,(I think you get the point...)I get to have "quality time" with friends!!I just hope when I hang out with my gal,things won't be that bored.

Yours Truely,
Monkey Ling
      

WAAA~

    It was cloudy....the street was empty....trees lining up along the street...and the leaves were falling down gracefully....I was standing beside the street,with my bag on my back,waiting for her....my hair spiking up,wearing a blue,black and white shirt inside and a red jacket outside,with a black jeans......and there she came,with a cute blue shirt,and nice patterned jeans...she gave me a glaring smile...I can't help but reply that beautiful smile...
    Her hair wasn't tied like always.....this time it was loose...the strong wind kept blowing of her wavy hair.....I adjusted her hair that covered her eyes...again she smiled...my heart melted...(OMG...) the next second she was grasping my palms...her palms felt cold.....so I took of my jacket and put it on her...she looked like a baby being wrapped in a towel...but even after being in my jacket,she still insist of holding my palm...this time I smiled...and she lay her head on me....I can feel the heat from her entering my body....
    I was glad that the street was as though it has no end....we walked and walked....until one moment.....I looked at her..she looked at me.....I could not feel the wind blowing....the leaves falling on me and her.....our face came closer....closer.....and closer......

RING !!!!!RING !!!!!RING !!!!!


Damn alarm clock....... T.T 
I hope that dream comes back......
UWAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!

After Centuriess.......

    Its been long since I post my last post......Well,its just that I don't know what to post~ XD
Now,things in my life are still like see saw,sometimes good,some times....not so good,all I know,the good is getting better,and the bad is like,i'm not so sure....lesser?

    I had fun and nice times with her...ESPECIALLY merentas desa.....I'll never ever forget that historical day of my life....done many 1st time things..(attention....no kiss....I'm still a kid!!a small,innocent kid~ :D )But there is always silence between us,me don't like la...isk3...make me feel....like I'm a boring person.I realize that with my friends and her friends,there is rarely a silent moment (cause I'm a noisy guy....very noisy....)I hope the silence will decrease....I hate silence...its creepy..... >.<

    Ok2,I've made tonnes of friends~!!new ones,gals and boys,old and young,local and international,small and big,round and rectangular....err......etc etc....Some are fun,some are boring,but all I know...they make me not bored!!Thats what I love about friends.....they make me cozy~and I can be myself to many of thems...thx friends!!

   

   

Thanks Jie Jie.....

Crazy.
A perfect word used to describe me.Crazy is what I am.To emotional about many things.Weird year this year.

Its a pain in the ass,but I realize I've got a disease.....-jealousy disease.I easily get jealous for unstated reasons.It was one evening,I opened my Facebook,and saw a post on "her" wall.Just for such a simple post,I became so not myself.I started havin weird..weird toughts.I just faked smiles and pretend that nothing happened to me,but my heart kept feelin "chukoo".My dinner was the worst(but actually the food was one of the best in my life...)

I couldn't stand it anymore,I needed someone,and  I decided to sms S.I'm lucky to have my messenger,my friend,my advicer,my sister.S made me sleep well that night.I tought I wont be sleeping that night,or maybe sleeping with not being myself,but S prove my tought wrong.I had a decent sleep.I even smiled before sleeping.Waking up the next day,I was shocked that I actually smiled.Before the sms-ing session,I was forcing to smile,but after that,I was forcing NOT to smile in case anybody think that I was going nuts.

S,please be my friend forever okay.I need you so that I can need "her". I always do need your advice.Please say it if I had done anything stupid and wrong.Please don't keep anything in your mind.Spill everything out.And for one last thing,please send my apologies to "her" sis.......

2011....

I had days of suprise.....I can't believe i'm actually in form 3....I realize that I've got closer with her.....I tend to play alot with her.....and something shocking about this year is....I'm havin a deep friendship with my friend.....I take him like my brother now .....like my own brother....its like....I don't really care bout other guys...even if they die or live,but my bro....any slightest scratch fell on him I'll feel anxious....I've to admit,I do have a brotherly love for him this year........

I've also realize something shocking about this year.......that my emotions are controlling me,and not vice versa.....I'm mad at the fact that now my mind won't listen to me....its at its own pace......controlling ME.....I need to end this......I must get a hang of myself again like I used to....

Other than that....school,as usual,is fun....the teachers teaching me.....the situation at morning session.....the weather that makes me sweat less....eheh....well,I kinda like morning session....its....ermm....can't believe i'm typing this....but yes, FUN....

My main thing for this year is my PMR,my running n throwin,my hockey,my bro and of coz my one n only baby~I just can't think of anythin else......for this year.....and I hope I won't be that busy with all my post in my Clubs and stuff......hmm....I don't really know what else to type.......hahaha~

Mixed Mind...

Sometimes I do have happy toughts about her.......laughing with her...walking with her....staring at each other eyes....well,those things are fun!!Not to be boasting,usually I'm confident in everything I do and think......but...about me and her.....I just don't get it....I'm having a bad feeling that it's not gonna work....I admit,I'm afraid it won't work...I tried to just throw away that fear.....and anxiousness......but,it just won't go away.....

It all started when her dad came in the story....she did mention that her cousin got married with a foreign girl,and her dad commented a lot...I'm afraid that her dad won't accept me...as we are both from different religions....but for us...we don't mind at all.....cause we both know that we are human,and we have the same feelings for each other-Love....love has no limits....

Her mom and dad loves her,but I think they just don't understand her(no offence ok bb....jz my stupid opinion..)They are thinking bout things tat are best for her,but they never think bout her!Its like forcing air into a balloon.....and  someday that balloon is just gonna burst.....I wish and hope and pray tat my gal doesn't "burst"...

I don't know why I'm typing and posting this...my mind is just full of toooooo many conflicts......99.9% is all cause of only 1 person,my gal.....that 1% left is just my personal stupid and crazy toughts.....and mostly toughts about her,right now is....worried,afraid and sad.......I just hope that I was born as a chinese...and the story will be so damn easier!!!!!I'm just part chinese,so its kinda like no use......

P/s:BB.....if u get mad at me readin at this stuff....u cn choose what u wana do 2 me....i'll accept anythin....anythin from hell to heaven....

Juz A Day....

I woke up,straight away carried my guitar,placed it on my laps,and started my day with a song.Then my mom came in,asking me to help her dry the clothes.The sun was  really mad that time.My skin was feeling as tough there's hot coal placed on my skin.Hanging up the clothes as fast as I could,I ran into my house and dipped my head in the water tub.

How refreshing was the coolness of the water.I helped my mom to cook lunch,siakap fish soup and fried salmon.(God...I love food...but,surely it can't compare the love to my gal ~)Eating while having a nice chat with my mom,I realise that tomorrow by that time,I would be thinking of her,nearly 100feet above the ground.I online for some moment,listening to songs,and after I've done,bored online-ing,I played hockey for a while.

Another bath,then I watched Pakistan vs Malaysia Hockey.(Pakistan won over Malaysia with a 2-0 victory.....Pakistan....wonderful play...great scoops...)Then I went dinner with my family.Came back and helped my dad to transfer some of the sand in front of my house.Then,slowly I went to him and asked if I could online.Well,his usual answer,"no" came out from his mouth.Then I kinda like argued with him,and of a suprise(more to a shock),I won that arguement,but I can only online for an hour.

Receiving an message from my gal saying she'll online 9.45 made me smile until my ears.Waiting,patiently and happily,finally she onlined.I chat,and chat,and chat.I was so glad that she and I finally onlined the same time.But she and I weren't so free to chat.Her mom was so near to her,and my dad was just meters away from me.I didn't care about my dad,I just focus on my chatting with my gal~

Suddenly my dad stood up,asking me to offline.I said my last words to my gal,she,like always,told me to have a safe journey(such a caring gf..isk3...)So,I offlined.That time,if my heart had a face,it would be smiling.So,I entered my room,packing my stuff for my Sabah trip tomorrow.But,then,I couldn't sleep.So I slowly went out of my room,and online again,silently,without anyone knowing about that except me.

BB....Ich liebe dich,je t'aime,i ngrá leat,dangsin-eul salanghabnida,Watashi wa anata o aishite,eu te amo~
(for more info....visit any translation website la k~~)