Crazy.
A perfect word used to describe me.Crazy is what I am.To emotional about many things.Weird year this year.
Its a pain in the ass,but I realize I've got a disease.....-jealousy disease.I easily get jealous for unstated reasons.It was one evening,I opened my Facebook,and saw a post on "her" wall.Just for such a simple post,I became so not myself.I started havin weird..weird toughts.I just faked smiles and pretend that nothing happened to me,but my heart kept feelin "chukoo".My dinner was the worst(but actually the food was one of the best in my life...)
I couldn't stand it anymore,I needed someone,and I decided to sms S.I'm lucky to have my messenger,my friend,my advicer,my sister.S made me sleep well that night.I tought I wont be sleeping that night,or maybe sleeping with not being myself,but S prove my tought wrong.I had a decent sleep.I even smiled before sleeping.Waking up the next day,I was shocked that I actually smiled.Before the sms-ing session,I was forcing to smile,but after that,I was forcing NOT to smile in case anybody think that I was going nuts.
S,please be my friend forever okay.I need you so that I can need "her". I always do need your advice.Please say it if I had done anything stupid and wrong.Please don't keep anything in your mind.Spill everything out.And for one last thing,please send my apologies to "her" sis.......
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
2011....
I had days of suprise.....I can't believe i'm actually in form 3....I realize that I've got closer with her.....I tend to play alot with her.....and something shocking about this year is....I'm havin a deep friendship with my friend.....I take him like my brother now .....like my own brother....its like....I don't really care bout other guys...even if they die or live,but my bro....any slightest scratch fell on him I'll feel anxious....I've to admit,I do have a brotherly love for him this year........
I've also realize something shocking about this year.......that my emotions are controlling me,and not vice versa.....I'm mad at the fact that now my mind won't listen to me....its at its own pace......controlling ME.....I need to end this......I must get a hang of myself again like I used to....
Other than that....school,as usual,is fun....the teachers teaching me.....the situation at morning session.....the weather that makes me sweat less....eheh....well,I kinda like morning session....its....ermm....can't believe i'm typing this....but yes, FUN....
My main thing for this year is my PMR,my running n throwin,my hockey,my bro and of coz my one n only baby~I just can't think of anythin else......for this year.....and I hope I won't be that busy with all my post in my Clubs and stuff......hmm....I don't really know what else to type.......hahaha~
I've also realize something shocking about this year.......that my emotions are controlling me,and not vice versa.....I'm mad at the fact that now my mind won't listen to me....its at its own pace......controlling ME.....I need to end this......I must get a hang of myself again like I used to....
Other than that....school,as usual,is fun....the teachers teaching me.....the situation at morning session.....the weather that makes me sweat less....eheh....well,I kinda like morning session....its....ermm....can't believe i'm typing this....but yes, FUN....
My main thing for this year is my PMR,my running n throwin,my hockey,my bro and of coz my one n only baby~I just can't think of anythin else......for this year.....and I hope I won't be that busy with all my post in my Clubs and stuff......hmm....I don't really know what else to type.......hahaha~
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