my day...

20th November,2010..

As usual,I woke up real damn late,12 p.m.Checking my cellphone for a message or two from her,but unfortunately,none.I try to hide my feelings of missing her and wanting her message by,well,what I do all the time,eat my lunch,watch some animes,when I got bored,I had some appointment with my guitar,and when I got bored of the guitar,I switched into watching Twilight.Watching and waiting,just for one message,even one message can make the difference in my head,soul and heart that time,but as time passed,still no message.Then my dad told me to cut d overgrown grass behind my lawn.Thinking of her while facing those grasses,my neighbour behind my house,Edward came and had some chit-chat with me.We both talked about hockey and other sports as he was an ex-athlete and I'm like,considered an athlete,but a bad one.Talking with tat old man and still thinking about her,making me feel more depressed with his cigarette smokes floating across my face,I decided to go and bath.Its weird when you can't feel the warmness of the heated water on your body.After bathing,I checked my cell phone,but still no message,so,I decided to take the risk and message her myself.But,for some reasons,she can't continue messaging with me.So,with a,kinda like bad mood,I just slept to make time fly as fast as possible.My dad knocked my room door and asked me to "enjoy" my dinner.Eating as fast as I could,I started drawing somethings after "enjoying".Hours passed and I could finally online my Facebook,hoping for her to online to.Then I saw her status "why why why?!!!!! u on whn i off, u off whn i on?!!!".That status was posted 5p.m.,and that time,I was "chatting" with grasses behind my lawn.I regretted like hell for not cutting the grass faster,but,like people say, "the ship has sailed",we can't go back to time.So,I just continue online-ing,chatted with some friends,and finally,11 something,I was chatting with Suz,my gal's....well,kinda like best friend.We chat and chat and chat,then,suddenly,something unexpected happened,after 9 years,finally,some kind of water called "tears" came rolling out of my eyes for no REASON.It came out all off a sudden,rolling unstoppably,maybe thats what happens after 9 years not crying.I had to go to bed.Even when I closed my eyes,those tears still came out.Ignoring the pain in my both eyes and in my throat,i just closed my eyes,and slept.That was my day....